Friday, December 18, 2009

I want to be a writer

I want to be a writer.

Really, I do. I dream of writing articles, book jackets, novels, even editing...I would love to have a home office and someday, quit my day job to be a writer (seriously, I want to be Angela Lansbury, minus the scary adventures she had every Sunday night at nine). However, there are several obstacles keeping me from reaching this goal.

1. I lack discipline. I show great enthusiasm for starting projects, but finishing them is a real challenge. Finishing anything is a real challenge for me - I get bored about midway through whatever I'm doing, when the initial excitement wears off (I often tell Grant he's lucky...I must really love him because he's lasted longer than much else in my life!).

2. I lack creativity. I am great at seeing something and copying it without directions, even improving upon it. However, original ideas don't come to me very easily (unless it's a way to improve efficiency or organize something). Since plagarism is a bad thing, this obstacle could present a real problem.

3. I don't know how to get started. Should I try writing plays? Poems? Book jackets? Magazine articles? How do I get started? Do I submit them somewhere myself? Is there a process I'm not aware of to be published? I just don't know.

I think I'm finally ready to start working on these obstacles. I've decided to start small, by writing one piece a week and publishing it on my blog. It could be a movie/book review, a short story, a poem, a narrative on my day...we'll see. Hopefully, this will help with both obstacle 1 & 2. Then, I'll just need help with #3! Any writers out there in Blogland??

Current Projects!

Lately, I've felt the need to take a break from blogging. I've had so many things going on that I've become completely unorganized...and when I'm unorganized, I feel out of control. Then, I spend all my time trying to get organized, which leaves little time for anything else (like completing the mountain of projects I'm in the middle of).

I've been working on many things lately, which has led to a lack of doing housework, laundry, cooking...this week I've taken lots of stuff to Goodwill, gotten my house cleaned up and gotten on top of my laundry, so now, I'm feeling in control.

I love feeling in control.

But wait, that's a totally different post. This is supposed to be about my current projects.

First, an explanation - I don't have anything I'm really passionate about. I like lots of things, but I'm not into any one particular thing enough to, say, start a business doing it. Lately, this seems to be a problem, because I spend my free time trying to master cooking, baking, quilting, sewing, decorating, cleaning, etc., etc., etc. This leads to many, many unfinished projects. Like these:

I'm making this quilt as a wedding gift for my friend Renee. She got married in August...although in my defense, I was the Matron of Honor, and there was NO WAY to finish this before the wedding.

I'm working on a photo project. It started as organizing a box of my mom's's morphed into organizing, scanning, and completing a family history. (Who's that cute little baby on top...? Oh yeah, it's me!)

I'm making my friend some terry cloth burpers for her little one due in January. The top two are samples, and the bottom photo shows the fabrics I'm making Joey's burpers in.

Below is a good example of my recent craft room/office/sewing room. The mess is incredibly disturbing.

Nine months in my house and I've finally started decorating my house (well, the walls, anyway). This is my oh-so-cool plate-wall-decoration-thingy. Made cooler by the fact that I got it on clearance!

I also put up a few wedding pictures. I'm going to have a few canvases printed as well...can't wait! Just have to figure out where to have that done.

Another project I don't have a picture of - making aprons. I found the cutest pattern to make aprons, and I was sure I could dive right in and make aprons for everyone I know. However, I haven't sewn clothes in...15 years? So, I haven't started yet. But I'm going to!

So, this has been my life lately, along with working full time and taking care of the house. And, learning how to be more like Martha Stewart and Monica Geller! And Julia Child...but that's another post too.

Thursday, December 17, 2009


Today my coworkers and I went to Hot Italian for lunch. I've never been before, although I've walked by it many times. If you haven't been, you should - they have pizza, calzones, panninis and sandwiches that range in price from $9 to about $15. The servings are huge, so you'll definitely get two meals for the price of one here.

As we were waiting for the rest of our party to arrive, we ordered drinks. I picked up my Diet Coke (I know, I'm wild) and there on the table...was this:

I named him Stan. I don't know why, he just looks like a Stan. He made it all the way through lunch, but by the end, he was really beginning to fade.

Poor Stan.

A work haiku for you

More apps on my desk
Wanting to be routed now
I don’t want to though.

Clearly I'm not in the work zone yet. I'm thinking about work (as evidenced by the lovely haiku above), but I'm not really in my groove.

The day is progressing slowly.

And may I add in a related note? Good. I'm sick of furloughs. I miss having money, and I'm tired of feeling broke.

Dear Governator - I WANT MY MONEY BACK.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

My little boy

My little boy is not so little anymore.

For those of you who don't know me so well, he's not my son.

He's my dog.

Yep, I have a dog who is like my child. I know you're all saying, "April, a dog is nothing like a child." I get that. However, he is VERY good training for having children. He woke up every hour at night to potty when he was young; he barfs and poops and I have to clean it up, he even whines. On the good side, he snuggles and cuddles and loves me too.

For a long time, Bruiser weighed 12.9 pounds. He's a miniature dachshund, so 12-15 pounds is an appropriate weight range for him. For the first two years of his life, we lived in an apartment in Midtown, and we went on walks almost every night. Now, we live in the Burbs and don't go on walks nearly as often. Bruiser still plays outside a lot and chases his toys, but he is WAY lazier than he used to be.

The last time I weighed him, he had gone up to 14.9 pounds! TWO POUNDS GAINED! I called him porky even then, and started to worry about watching his weight. Today, I weighed him again.

16.4 pounds!

Crap, in miniature dachshund terms, he's obese. So, tonight Bruiser and I went running (because technically, I'm obese too...scary). I ran, Bruiser not so much. He apparently needs to practice walking again. He's still very good on a leash, but he had to sniff EVERY light pole that we walked past, and had to pee on most of them. Needless to say, it was a short walk/run. We're going to try again tomorrow.

Here are a few pictures of Bruiser I found when I was going through my computer tonight. You can see how he got older, and fatter, in the progression (pictures are in reverse progression...starting with tonight. That sweater used to fit him much better - now he looks like a sausage in stripes).

Bruiser just after our failed walk/run tonight.

Almost two years old.

He doesn't get tennis balls anymore...he gets seriously obsessed.


He looks so young! He loved that blanket...actually he loved it to death.

Back to Blogging

I'm sorry.

I want to blog.

Really, I do. Ideas keep running through my head. Things I do during the day, pictures I take, and articles I read all make me want to blog about them. I read other blogs and want to be like those people.

And yet, I can't blog.

I haven't blogged in SO long. I know, I've completely failed you all. I've had things to say, and I'm sure you're all completely anxious to read them. I know, everyone wants to know what I have to say.

I think my problem is that I spend all day on the computer, and when I come home, I don't want to open my laptop. At. All. But, I'm going to be more disciplined about it. I'm going to think of blogging as a task I have to get done (an enjoyable one).

Here are some topics I've got in my head that you can look forward to:

- The movie Julie & Julia
- Projects I'm working on, both crafty and serious
- Bruiser and how he's growing...out, not up
- Mature new years resolutions (not "adult" in that sense, but grown up, responsible, well thought-out resolutions)
- Ridding my life of poisonous people

I know, you can't wait, right!? So, I'll go get started.