Monday, October 6, 2008

What a coincidence...or are there really coincidences???

Last night I wrote all about the power, the high I feel while shopping. Tonight, I had the TV on but wasn't really watching it. Dr. Phil came on, and it was all about this couple who was drowning in debt because they both went on shopping sprees! The woman had TWO closets full of clothes, half with tags; she had $4,000 worth of Coach purses and shoes. Her husband was just as bad, with an estimated $33,000 worth of stuff just in their home office alone.

If you've been reading my blog, it's pretty obvious that lately I've been feeling pretty retrospective...I'm trying to learn a little about myself, and maybe make some improvements along the journey. I'm amazed to even say this, but the Dr. Phil show tonight struck a chord with me. And I don't even like Dr. Phil!

It amazed me how many things this couple said that resonated with me. Luckily for me, I wasn't quite up to the extreme that they are, but in my own way, I was out of control. Also lucky for me, I realized it awhile back and think that I'm on the tail end of my own downward spiral. Thinking about having cash in the bank actually brings more excitement right now than thinking about buying something. What a turnaround!

Long story short, it's nice to see stories of other people that you can relate to. Makes you think...

Sunday, October 5, 2008

The Power of Shopping

Over the last few, well, years, I've gotten to be quite the shopaholic. This isn't exactly something that I'm proud of, as I've put myself in debt that I should have avoided. Last month I made a commitment to not purchase anything that wasn't routine or absolutely necessary - no frills. I did okay, although I bought an awful lot of Starbucks, and I did a little bit of thrill shopping here and there. I did much better, however, than I have in a long time.

This month, I reinforced my commitment to no-frills shopping. So far, I'm actually doing really good (yes, I realize it is only the 5th), and the positive balance in my bank account is a strong motivating factor to not buy crap.

However, there is something about shopping that I just LOVE. No, that I NEED.

Shopping truly is my hobby.

I was at Starbucks tonight - I know what you're going to say...but in the interest of budgeting, I put a set amount on my Starbucks card this month and when it's gone, I'm done - and I had left the house where I'm dog-sitting specifically for Starbucks, and that was it. However, I got into my car and felt this incredible need to just go somewhere. I was racking my brain, trying to think of things I might need to buy, or stores I might need to visit: Target? No, don't need anything. Ross? No, can't buy a new purse or clothes. Raleys? Nope, don't even need any groceries. Dang.

I don't know what it is about shopping, but I really do feel a pull when I'm out and about near stores. It's like, I have money, and money is buying power, which means I have the power to choose what I want to buy. And that equates to plain old power, and I like power. I'm drawn to power. I love power.

Can it be that I've just had an epiphany?

I shop not because I need things, or even because I desire things, but for the pure joy of the shopping experience itself? The power of choosing something, of pulling out that cash, credit or debit card, and saying "Damn right, I can afford this and I choose to buy this."

Of course, I usually get home and realize, No I can't really afford it, and I definitely should not have chosen to buy it...